An invitation to find stillness in the middle of a busy week.
An invitation to find stillness in the middle of a busy week.
What Still Waters Means to Me
What Still Waters Means to Me
January 2, 2019
Hello and welcome to my first ever blog entry! If you are looking for expertise or technology savvy, you may not want to start here. There are plenty of other bloggers out there whose technological knowledge far exceeds my own. On the other hand, if you are considering exploring new ideas or simply interested in taking a midweek break, you have come to the right place! I hope for this blog to be an invitation for you as the reader to ponder, think about, or (you guessed it) meditate on what it means to be still in the midst of a chaotic world. I will offer thoughts about mindfulness and other topics pertinent to my practice and its practical application. This blog is likewise an invitation for me to practice what I preach and slow down long enough to mindfully and purposefully observe the present in an effort to grow and connect with myself and others. Will this blog be perfect? Absolutely not. Will this blog be thoughtful? Absolutely yes. So, without further ado, let us meditate on still waters.
When you think of still waters, what images come to your mind? Perhaps, like me, your mind recalls any number of beautiful beach scenes we on the coast are privileged to witness on any given day. You may imagine low tide at the end of a clear and warm day. You may see the water and note how it reflects the colors of the sunset. For our night owls, you may imagine the water and how it captures the moon and stars in the sky. Finally, for the morning people (I respect you, but I do not understand you), you may see the sunrise as it splits the horizons and melts into the water beneath. You could observe the life living in the waters. Maybe you see birds floating serenely on the surface, or the fish swimming in schools beneath the surface. When the water is still, you may even be able to find a shell nestled in the sand.
In all of these images, we recognize two themes: reflection and peace. I would suggest that this is the importance of stillness. If the waters never grew still, even for just a moment, we would never get to see the sky's beauty reflected. Furthermore, if the waters did not still, the birds could not rest and the school of fish may lose track of a few of its students. I have the same belief about human beings. By not taking the time to reflect, to even be still, what beauty are we missing? How can we experience peace when we are always in motion? What gift might we never discover because we did not observe the quiet waters? I encourage you, reader, as I encourage myself, to simply take a moment. Notice the beauty around you. Allow yourself to experience peace. Observe the gifts nestled in the quiet. Be still.
You don't have to hesitate. Meditate.
You don't have to hesitate. Meditate.
January 9, 2019
I incorporate meditation as a part of my daily routine personally and professionally. I use meditations with my clients on a regular basis and some people express resistance when I initially suggest this skill. I get responses like:
“I have never been able to not think about anything.”
“I don’t have time to meditate.”
“I can’t meditate.”
I think the primary issue here is that we do not understand what it means to meditate. It is useful, therefore, to consult an expert on semantics. Merriam-Webster defines the word “meditate” as an intransitive verb meaning:
1) to engage in contemplation or reflection
2) to engage in mental exercise (such as concentration on one’s breathing or repetition of a mantra) for the purpose of reaching a heightened level of spiritual awareness.
When used as a transitive verb, Merriam-Webster defines meditate as follows:
1) to focus one’s thoughts on: reflect on or ponder over
2) to plan or project in the mind: intend, purpose
I am not ashamed to admit that my mental cobwebs have long ago grown over understanding of the distinction between an intransitive verb and a transitive verb (my apologies to my 8th grade Language Arts teacher, you did your best). However, I do not believe that recognizing this part of speech is vital to our understanding these definitions.
I was not surprised to discover that locating the definition of meditate debunked each of the resistant replies I have received against meditating in session. Firstly, the presumption that meditating means to “not think about anything” is in direct violation of definition 1 for either usage. The act of engaging in “contemplation” or “to focus one’s thoughts on” suggests that meditating includes considering, or “pondering” concepts, not “keeping your mind blank” as one may believe.
The second argument, that one does not “have time” to meditate also does not hold up against the definition provided by Merriam-Webster. The definition referring to “intend, purpose” informs us that meditation is an opportunity to explore our intentions or our purpose. If one does not consider purpose on a daily basis, what is it that we are spending all our time doing? Is every act an aimless exercise meant to fill space and time? Does what you do and say every day have a rationale? Is it important to consider that rationale, whether to motivate you to continue in your endeavors? Or, if you find that your activities do not coincide with your intention or purpose, does it make sense to ponder an alternative?
Lastly, the claim that “I can’t meditate” is counterintuitive. Our definition does not describe a specific structure for meditation. The examples included here liken meditation to “concentration on one’s breathing or repetition of a mantra.” If you are telling me that you cannot breathe during the day, we have bigger issues and you may need to consult a physician. Therefore, there appears to be more freedom in the concept of meditation. Indeed, meditation is not about rigidly following a program developed by an expert. It is not about “doing it right.”
This sense of freedom is what I love so much about meditation. This means that meditation is what you need it to be. Meditation can be a reflection of what you did today. Mediation can also be a creation of intention for your day and the possibilities for your intention are endless. Meditation in its most simple and, I think most powerful form, can also be to just breathe. So, this is what I challenge you to do today. If you are willing, Reader, I encourage you to consider, ponder, or meditate on what it means to simply breathe. To be still.
Meditate.2011. In Merriam-Webster.com.
Meditate or Medicate?
Meditate or Medicate?
January 16, 2019
I am occasionally asked the question: “Do I need medication and therapy, or just therapy?” It is first important to clarify that I am a Licensed Clinical Social Worker. I have no medical license and thus cannot legally make a recommendation for pharmacological treatment. I would have to refer you to a provider who could make this determination. It is secondly important to clarify that I am not you and, therefore, it would be inappropriate for me to abjectly deny that you will ever need or not need to do anything in addressing your symptoms.
I think we sometimes rely too much on the “expert” of whatever service we are utilizing to make our decisions for our care when, ultimately, the choice is ours. I emphasize that I include myself in this “we.” Once you have identified a provider whose opinion and practice you trust, it easy to simply follow orders without asking any questions. After all, this person went to school for this and has been trained to do this. Who am I to question that authority? Nonetheless, a quality I respect in other health care providers is when they clearly explain their knowledge of a particular treatment and then redirect me to make my own informed decision.
All we as providers can do is make recommendations and provide education surrounding your symptoms and what evidence suggests is the most effective treatment regimen. However, each individual is so vastly different, there is no one-size-fits all program. I cannot and would not suggest that your experience is going to be exactly like anyone else’s, nor that you will respond to one treatment in the exact same way as someone else. The good news is that research is so readily accessible to us, we can inform ourselves of the options. With the click of a button, we can assemble thousands of articles surrounding different diagnoses and treatments. It is useful to sift through this wealth of information to find trusted sources of education and then discuss this with your provider to determine the best course of action. If your provider does not have the training for a particular treatment that resonates with you, you have the opportunity to educate your provider, or, to seek out a provider with this training.
Once you have educated yourself on a treatment and begun the regimen, your responsibility is not yet fulfilled. It is further your responsibility to monitor your response to this treatment. Recognizing that everyone responds differently to different treatments, it is imperative that you observe your body’s reaction to a change and to report these observations to your provider so that they can adjust your regimen as necessary. In this way, you will be an active participant in your own treatment. I believe this action is essential is improving quality of life. So, I invite you, Reader, to ask yourself “Do I need to medicate, meditate, or both?”
Third Time’s a Charm
Third Time’s a Charm
January 23, 2019
Perhaps I don’t mean “a charm.” I do believe, however, that the third time is the chance. I am referring to the chance offered during a third meeting with a therapist. I have been told on more than occasion that my clients’ third session with me is “their favorite” or “the most helpful” at the beginning of treatment. This is likely true for a couple of reasons.
By the third session, a real therapeutic relationship has begun to develop. I am getting to know my client, better understanding their personality and interpretation in addition to their communication style. My client is also getting to know me. My client can get an idea of my therapeutic style and my client will begin to get a sample of my therapeutic skills through conversation as well as homework assignments I give to them (that’s right, I give homework but, unlike with school, you really do get an “A” for effort).
A second reason for the third session being the most enjoyable at the onset of treatment is because this is the first real opportunity my client and I have to experience “real” therapy. This is the session in which we both do we what is often imagined as a typical therapy session. My client talks about issues concerning them presently and I offer feedback. We both discuss my client’s needs and tangible means for addressing these needs. This is the first opportunity to have a typical therapy session due to the structure of psychotherapy.
It is common practice for mental health services to follow some version of the following structure: Intake, Treatment Plan, Psychotherapy, Discharge. Depending upon your provider or practice, there can be some variance in this sequence, but this is a basic outline of therapy services. The first appointment in my practice is always the Intake.
This appointment involves the client signing the myriad of paperwork that they would complete at any provider’s practice (i.e. demographics, insurance information, signing away your inheritance, etc.). This appointment also includes the biopsychosocial assessment. The biopsychsocial assessment is exactly what it sounds like. I will ask my client multiple questions related to their biological, psychological, and social history to get a comprehensive understanding of what brought them to my office. These questions will inevitably include family history/dynamics, medical concerns, mental health symptoms, among other facets of my client’s experience. This appointment can sometimes be difficult for the client because I am asking them to reflect upon their life experiences and what brought them to my office. In some cases, I am asking people to retell some of the most difficult times in their lives and this may be uncomfortable or even painful for some clients. Nonetheless, this appointment is essential in the therapeutic process. If we do not look at where you have been, how will we know where to go together?
The second appointment is the Treatment Plan. This appointment is where I review with my client their symptoms and my client’s specific goals for addressing these symptoms. I like to set measurable goals for my clients and I like to review this plan frequently to ensure that we are meeting my client’s goals in a reasonable time frame. For instance, if you would like to make more friends, how will you accomplish this? Is it a reasonable goal to state that you will participate in more activities to meet new people in the next month? Or, would you like to learn and implement better communication skills in the next two weeks? Or both? Here again, developing a treatment plan is not usually what one pictures when they think of a therapy session. This session is nevertheless a necessary component in the process of treatment. My client and I must establish goals in order to clearly identify what we will work on together and so that we can celebrate together when these goals are accomplished.
Therefore, there are a multitude of reasons why the third session is so well enjoyed at the beginning of treatment. My client has chosen to trust me with their life’s story during the Intake session and has invited me along their journey for healing by developing a treatment plan with me to improve their wellbeing. This is a privilege I highly value and this is likely why the third session is also my favorite. The good news is that treatment can continue to improve as long as my clients continue to trust the process, trust me, and trust themselves. So, Reader, I encourage you to not get discouraged if your first two appointments are not exactly what you imagined for treatment. I encourage you to be honest and be patient as we begin our work together. I encourage you to give yourself the chance to experience the process. I encourage to be still.
Stigma. Dogma. Bushwa.
Stigma. Dogma. Bushwa.
January 30, 2019
I would like to briefly address the stigma that surrounds mental illness and seeking mental health services. I recognize that this is a difficult subject to tackle and that there are more intelligent and educated individuals working to address this same issue and yet, it is something I would like to process as well. I would first like to give credit to individuals and organizations that have striven to alleviate the impact of the stigma surrounding mental health services. There are advocates around the world who attempt to provide support to those seeking mental health services through resources and education to the general public. Perhaps the most well known of these is NAMI. I appreciate what these organizations do to help those in my profession and our clients.
Despite all of the strides we have made, however, there remains a stigma attached to mental health issues and those who would seek to ameliorate these concerns. It surprises me that I still have people suggest to me that they “could probably use therapy, but I’m not crazy.” The implications of this sentiment, even when spoken in jest, are that we as human beings continue to hold onto negative connotations associated with mental health diagnoses and services. We still think on a subconscious level that, “if you are going to a therapist, there must be something wrong with you.” This is, of course, the most benign assumption someone makes about an individual with a mental illness. Unfortunately, we also may still believe that someone with mental health issues is inherently more dangerous than others. This is counterintuitive.
Someone who is diagnosed with mental illness and actively seeking treatment is less likely to be dangerous than previously purported. This is only logical. This individual may better recognize their personal needs and is working towards meeting these needs. Furthermore, someone who is regularly participating in treatment is being monitored by a mental health professional. This person would then likely have more accountability and resources than someone not participating in treatment. I am not surprised that the research agrees with this logic. According to mentalhealth.gov, an individual diagnosed with severe mental illness is 10 times more likely to be the victim of a violent crime than the general population. In other words, someone diagnosed with a mental illness is more likely to be perpetrated on than are others not diagnosed with mental illness.
I am not sure where this stigma comes from, but I think it could be related to antiquated religious dogma that permeates our culture. Some religious tradition previously held that disorders or diseases of the body were related to moral failings on the part of the patient. Thanks to education on the development and spread of disease, these ideas have been largely dispelled in Western culture. Indeed, I do not think that someone would think less of an individual who had been diagnosed with Breast Cancer or Degenerative Disk Disease. We would not assume that they developed these health issues due to “weakness” or another personal failing. So, why would we attribute these qualities to someone with a mental illness? Why do we feel that it is necessary to point out that “we are not crazy” when we note increased depression or anxiety during a period in our lives? I encourage you, Reader, to take a moment and examine your own bias. Consider what you may be subconsciously applying to the notion of therapeutic services and those who seek this resource. Maybe next time you notice these assumptions arise, rather than discrediting those who seek services as “crazy,” you will instead take the opportunity not to judge, but to be still.
U.S. Department of Health and Human Services (2018, August 29). Mental Health Myths and Facts. Retrieved from https://www.mentalhealth.gov/basics/mental-health-myths-facts
Community Is Not Just A T.V. Show
Community Is Not Just A T.V. Show
February 6, 2019
Yes, it is true. I have seen all of Community that was aired prior to the show’s move to Hulu. There were laughs. There was confusion. And there was also truth. Part of what intrigued me about this show was the concept of community and how it can be found in unlikely places. I think community is one of the most important parts of healing and also of the human experience. We are designed to be in community with other people. When we are deprived of community, we may have difficulty reaching our full potential. I make this assertion based on anecdotal evidence I have witnessed and experienced firsthand.
Having a community can provide purpose for our lives. For instance, if my community includes my immediate family, my purpose can be to protect and care for my family. This gives me a focus, separate from my own needs, to tend to and work for on a daily basis. This is naturally a reciprocal relationship, as this small community (my immediate family) is also available to focus on my needs. And I can hear the parents now, “My kids can’t fulfill my needs. That’s not their job.” I agree perfectly. A child is not responsible for the needs of an adult. Still, by virtue of their presence in your life, they are fulfilling your needs. Kids are smarter than we are. They often observe things we miss and if mom or dad needs them to pick up their toys for the house to feel calmer (and to not step on that Lego again!), that is the child’s responsibility. In this way, community gives us purpose and fulfills our purpose.
Community can also provide us with protection. Another example of community includes friendships. If we are actively participating in friendship with another person, they will come to know our presentation (i.e. habits, appearance, temperament). If there is a change in our presentation, our closest friend will be some of the first people to note this change. This friend could then remark on the change and offer means for helping to correct this change should it be unfavorable. This friend could help to get us to doctor appointments, check in with us about medication compliance, and provide a meal for us, in addition to offering other forms of support until we are back to our typical presentation.
A final product of community is the opportunity community gives us to reflect. The people that we choose to surround ourselves with typically reflect what we think of ourselves or who we wish to be. Special interest groups like religious affiliations, professional outlets, or even gyms target specific talents we have and pursuits in which we desire to endeavor. If we take a moment to observe the communities we are involved in, we have the potential to learn a lot about ourselves. This leads me to some questions for you, Reader.
In what kind of community do you find yourself? What purpose does this give you? What is this community giving back? What does this community say about you and who you desire to be? As always, I encourage you, Reader, to take time and consider. Take time to be still.
Self-Care. DO Care.
Self-Care. DO Care.
February 13, 2019
Self-care is a concept occasionally overused and misunderstood. The operational definition of self-care I will employ is a multidimensional concept that includes everything from hygiene to increasing socioemotional wellbeing. I would like to take a moment to recognize the utility of self-care not in spite of the holiday tomorrow, but because of the holiday tomorrow.
I will acknowledge that the modern celebration of Valentine’s Day seems mostly like a ploy for people to expect more gifts from others. In some ways, this is true. Do we really need a stuffed bear holding a heart from our loved one to know that they care? Not necessarily. Still, I think it is helpful for us to consider self-care today for the impact it has on ourselves and others.
I consider self-care as having physical, mental, spiritual, professional, emotional, and relational aspects. Physical self-care includes the traditional practices of hygiene and attending a physician for ailments, but it can also include exercise, eating well, and maintaining a healthy sleep schedule. Professional self-care includes setting appropriate boundaries with coworkers, taking regular vacations, in addition to leaving work at work. That’s right! When you leave your place of business, you can make a concerted effort to STOP working. You can tell your supervisor I said so.
Mental, spiritual, and emotional self-care are often grouped together as one aspect of self-care. I like to separate these into different categories as the activities associated with each of these and the benefits you receive from engaging in these activities are unique. Mental self-care activities can include seeing a therapist or taking a course in an area of professional or personal interest. On the other hand, spiritual self-care could include practicing mindfulness, attending a religious activity, or being out in nature. Finally, emotional self-care is going to appeal to specific feelings you have or desire to have. One might watch a funny movie, read a thought provoking book, or journal about an issue for which they are seeking clarity. There can be overlap in all of these categories, however, they still each serve a specific function in our overall wellbeing and hence deserve special mention.
You may not have heard of relational self-care. Nevertheless, I think observing our relational self-care is essential because this is a mutually beneficial practice. By establishing clear boundaries, maintaining contact with loved ones living far away, and, yes, by buying your loved one a stuffed bear, you are practicing relational self-care. You are making the choice to invest in someone else and this not only benefits you, but also the other person. They see that they are cared for by someone else and are likely to reflect this care back to you. What a healthy cycle?
So, I encourage you, Reader, to consider how you are caring for yourself and others today. If you do not have any one in particular to whom you would give a little stuffed bear, perhaps there are other people that need to see your relational self-care today. Maybe it would be useful for you to practice relational self-care with a stranger. Open a door for someone, smile at your mailperson, or say “thank you” to your wait staff at lunch. Of course, to notice who needs your care and observe the care you receive in return, you may need to be still.
Food for Thought
Food for Thought
February 20, 2019
Food is one of my favorite topics because it is so integral to my culture. Hah! It is only as important as we make it, right? Although, I will acknowledge that I live in the South and, therefore, food has played a significant role in my life. What do you do when someone has a baby? You bring them a casserole. What do you when someone is grieving? You bring them a casserole. What do you do when someone invites you into their home? You eat their casserole and bring a dessert with you to share. Quite often I hear, “I eat my feelings.” The thing is, this is at least partially true.
What do many of us do when we are sad? We seek comfort. Occasionally, we seek this comfort in food. Macaroni and cheese, brownies, deep fried butter…well, if we are sad and at the state fair, we will eat fried butter. Still, I think we can all admit that we have sought out extra carbs in an effort to dispel feelings of sadness, loneliness, anxiety, frustration, etc., at some point in our lives. I wonder, however, if we have ever considered what this food is actually doing for us. Is there a way to utilize what we eat to make a difference in our mood? Naturally, there is.
What we eat has great meaning for me not only culturally, but also biologically. I am certainly no nutritionist, but I do know that what we put in our gut has an impact on the rest of our experience. Let me introduce you to a little neurotransmitter called serotonin. Serotonin is associated with the regulation of a number of our bodily processes including sleep, appetite, and even mood. Serotonin does not only operate in our brain, as you might think. Serotonin travels back and forth between our brain and our gut because 90% of our serotonin receptors (the part of our body that collects and uses this regulating master) are located in our gut (Naidoo, 2018). Thus, if something is imbalanced in our gut, our serotonin could also be at risk for being out of balance. This could then cause adverse reactions in our sleep, appetite, and our mood. In this way, we actually eat our feelings on a daily basis.
Perhaps it would be useful then, Reader, to consider what you are consuming and monitor how this may be affecting your emotional health. It may be helpful to consult your primary care physician, or even a nutritionist regarding your body’s nutritional needs. You may also choose to peruse some of the literature from educational institutions applying to nutritional psychiatry (https://nutrition.org/food-and-mood-what-is-nutritional-psychiatry/). I will prompt you first to turn inward and ask yourself: what is the food I am ingesting doing to improve my physical, emotional, and mental wellbeing? Are these brownies really going to alleviate my sadness, or would it be useful to pair this comfort food with a food that could help to balance my gut and likewise, my mood? I would never ask you to turn away from the brownie completely because I do not intend to do that myself. I will ask that you take a moment to observe your food, observe your needs, and be still.
Naidoo, U. (2018, December 7). Gut feelings: how food affects your mood. Retrieved from https://www.health.harvard.edu/blog/gut-feelings-how-food-affects-your-mood-2018120715548You